Wednesday, January 07, 2015

My Word for 2015

I know I am a little late to this party...and I'm certain that most of you are looking at your screens in a state of shock...yes it's been a really long time...a really long time!

I've been mulling my word for a month or so now...I've really struggled with it this year...I can't seem to come up with just one word, so I'm going to try to write, in my stream of consciousness kind of way how I got to my word...words...

It started back in November...well, truth be told it started a lot longer ago, but this is when it began to make a little sense to me.  I realized on November 24, my 63rd birthday, that I had been collecting my Social Security check for almost a year...how in the world did that ever happen.  I remembered back when my mom first started getting her checks and how I thought "Dang she is so old!".  Well here I was, already a year in...whew, but the good news is I don't feel SO old...I am probably in the best shape of my life...yes you read that right...of my LIFE!  I have had the most amazing opportunity to work with a trainer since the spring...she has truly changed my life.  I work out with her 2 days a week, ride my bike, try to eat right, drink tons of water and I've even started jumping rope for a bit more cardio.  I also plan on starting Yoga.  I have made a CHOICE...I want to be as strong, flexible, and balanced as I can possibly be.  Yes, choice is one of my words...I remember when I was a working wife and mom, doing all the mom things...baseball practice, basketball practice, games one evening a week, a game or two on Saturday, homework, Cub Scouts, church, youth group..nothing out of the ordinary, just what every mom does...on top of teaching Special Ed full time, keeping a house, cooking and being a wife...again, nothing special, just doing what we all did at that point in our lives...my mom said "This time will pass, enjoy it while you're in it, but always try to make good choices."  At the time I thought, "What in the world is she talking about, make choices...I have no choices...I have to do it all!"  I have to be a good mom, wife, teacher, cook, housekeeper, pet mom, church member, volunteer and on and on...again nothing out of the ordinary...nothing exclusive to me...we were all in the same boat, rowing as fast as we could.  Over the years the circumstances have changed but there were still tons of things that I thought I needed to be the best, the best mom, mother in law, grandma, friend, business owner...why do we all do this to ourselves?  Now in my 64th year of my life I have finally figured out what my mom was talking about...we have to make CHOICES for ourselves...we can't always do it all, we can't always do what others expect us to do...we have to be happy doing the things that we choose to do, the things that make us happy...now I am not saying that we should all become self-centered, entitled women...that would not make my heart happy...I'm saying we need to make better choices...just think about it.  The thing about a choice is that we try to make the best ones, and sometimes they turn out not to be as good as we thought so we try to make a better one just around the corner.  We are a work in progress...forever!

It's taken me a very long time to be able to let things go...I hang on to thoughts of "I should have tried harder"  "I should have done more"  "What if..."  "Maybe I could have..."...I'm taking a lesson from Elsa...I'm going to "Let it Go"...I am going to be satisfied with myself that I have made the best choice, that I have done the best I can, and if sometimes that just doesn't meet others expectations...there's nothing I can do about that...so I am going to RELEASE those thoughts...I will continue to try to make the best choices, and let the rest go!

Now all of this thinking and mulling has brought me to my word...ENOUGH...this has been a very long journey for me...in my 64th year I am ENOUGH just the way I am.  I can't be everything to everybody...I can't take care of the "world"...I can't feel guilty about the things I choose not to do...I am ENOUGH as long as I make the best CHOICES daily that I can make and RELEASE the rest.

I plan to make 2015 the best year of my life so far...Strong, Healthy, Very Happy and ENOUGH!

24 comments:

paulette said...

WOW!! EXCELLENT POST!! I agreed with everything!! You are so right!! Have a great year...and with an attitude like that you will have a great life!
All the best!
P

Jayne Honnold said...

Welcome back! I certainly did do that double take when I saw your post come up on my sidebar. I am inspired by your new attitude. I need to consider making the same changes that you have made. You sound so happy and content. Lovely. :-)

paront1222@comcast.net said...

Carol, what an awesome discovery for you! I follow you on IG and when I saw you'd picked your word I just had to see what it was.

I retired from my secretarial job at our local middle school 1 year ago and when I turned 60 on 12/22 I told myself that I was really going to turn the page and stop regretting all the "what ifs" and "should I have" things and start fresh on January 1st....and I think I have. It's all about ME this year.....

Good luck in 2015 and be happy!

Peggy in NJ

antique quilter said...

Carol great post, wow, I felt I could have wrote a lot of it myself…..
great word, yes I agree. life now is about choices and letting go of the past and not feeling guilty about the choices that work best for me.

thanks you made my day
Kathie

The Rx quilter said...

So beautifully said. I see so much of my life in your words. My twins graduate from HS this year and it will be a year of Change for us all, especially me. I love the words from your mother, choices, yes choices we make for ourselves and our family maybe very different than other families choices but they are our choices and good for me/my family...and it's ok I'm different. Happy New Year, I follow you on IG and had to check this out ☺️

Beth Aalberts said...

Well said!

carol fun said...

Great post! I totally agree... I think back on the many choices I've made in my life and they didn't always turn out for the best, but they were the best choice I had at the time. I have come to accept them, let the bad ones go and move on... here's to all of us having a wonderful 2015!

carol fun said...

Great post! I totally agree... I think back on the many choices I've made in my life and they didn't always turn out for the best, but they were the best choice I had at the time. I have come to accept them, let the bad ones go and move on... here's to all of us having a wonderful 2015!

Janet O. said...

Full of wisdom, Carol! Very insightful. Though we can't always control the direction our life goes, we can control our attitude and approach to it. We always have a choice. And we ARE enough! : )

Gretchen said...

Fabulous post and so full of energy and good thoughts! Happy 2015!

Angie said...

I agree with you totally---here's to the best year of our life yet :)

Gypsy Quilter said...

Amen sister! We've missed you and it's so good to hear your voice again.

Jeanna said...

Those are wonderful words and your meaning for each one is on target. I'm in that between phase ...you know transitioning from raising the kids stage to empty nest but still working... Your post gives me a lot to think about.

Congratulations on your good health. May it continue throughout 2015!

Colleen said...

Great post!

Carrie ~ Cricketwood Prims said...

Awesome Carol! Best wishes on your continuing good health and enjoying Life to it fullest!

Gayle said...

BRAVO!

Gayle said...

(BTW - can you tell me who you are on Instagram?)

Sinta Renee said...

Excellent start to the new year ahead! And I think we all need to be reminded of that! I like your words and hope that you will continue to write and share your beautiful self with us this year!

Barb said...

sounds like a person breakthrough - good for you!!

Jeanne said...

Happy New Year! I loved your post! It hit home with me in many ways.

StitchinByTheLake said...

I love this testament to being who you are and being happy with it. God made us each one perfect in His eyes and we should be in our own as well! Bravo! blessings, marlene

Ranch Wife said...

Wise words from a wise woman! And I'm applauding your hard work on getting in shape too. I'm 50 and it really isn't nearly as easy as when I was 20!. Why oh why do we think we know it all at 20, only to look back and realize we knew very little. LOL

Mrs. Goodneedle said...

I love this post, thank you! I can most certainly relate on so many levels. There is an immense amout of wisdom in your words and I am so grateful that you took the time to share them here. Congratulations on making choices that have landed you exactly where you are right now, you need to know that you are an inspiration!

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